On Tardiness…
From the bottom of my heart: I’m sorry this post was late.
It’s hard for me to adjust to how much my schedule has changed in the last three months. I’m getting older, and swapping around from a ‘generally normal’ sleep schedule, into a hardcore third shift, back into the semi-normal one, then further modified into a rigid early bird special has been… difficult. I still haven’t gotten where I need to be with everything. There will be more than one late post. For that, I am sorry.
I’ll get there. And I won’t quit till it’s something I do correctly without thinking. I’m of the opinion that any authorship plans are now extremely long-term. That’s not a terrible thing; gives me time to make sure my writing continues to improve and I continue to demonstrate to any potential publishers just how reliable my work ethic can be.
My new job has a great emphasis on showing up on time. To the point that I’ve been given this ultimatum: Show up on time every day, and receive a semi-guaranteed promotion. Assuming I don’t trip and fall flat on my face, I am most likely staring down the barrel of a ninety day track into management. It’s worth noting the almost religious devotion the new job has to attendance and punctuality. I would do well to remember that applies to many places in ones life. You know, like blogs…
I’m doing everything I can to make sure that when it comes to the various situations I’ve found myself in that I move forward with a positive attitude. It doesn’t change anything, and it doesn’t truly ‘fix’ anything, but it gives me a slightly more stable platform to work from when it comes to the pursuits that I love. Those pursuits mandate that I slog through a few miles of mud to get anywhere worth going.
Further, from this point on, I’m going to leave the things I can’t control out of my worries. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s going to be worthwhile. I’m going to focus on what I can control: My health, how much sleep I get each evening, how I choose to pursue my writing, and how much writing I accomplish each day. If that means I have to forgo other pursuits to make my writing a reality, then I shall do so.
If it means I have to take years to accomplish what I would like to take months, then so be it. I shall simply handle the things which are within my control, and leave the rest to the whims of fate. In the end, I think it’s the only way to move forward and retain what shreds of sanity I have left to me.
As for Will of Blades, I’m not entirely sold on where it’s going right now. I’ve started to put myself into the driver’s seat of the character, and given that he’s been given the mental powers I covet very much, I’m going to back off of the story before it becomes an exercise in self aggrandizement.
It’s also hard for me to sit there and write about a guy who does not have a fun journey ahead of him when I’m actively trying to insert myself into the picture.
It’s an intriguing story, and maybe one day I’ll come back to it. For now that’s a big bag of nope.
That leaves me slightly in the lurch, and in need of a new story. I have some time available to me at work, which I have so far used to write the general outline and character backgrounds / bios / interactions for my Patreon short story to be released at the end of this month.
For now, I will simply use tomorrow as a chance to brainstorm a new story. I may even revisit a story that I polished off today and work with that one. We shall see, my precious..uses. Preciouseez? Preciousii? My darlings. We shall see.
To be continued…
BUM BUM BUMMMMMMM
All my love,
Justin
